@msmon55 Not everyone will totally understand where I'm coming from and totally get that. Been having some talking therapy sessions lately which are helping me to see things more clearly now. I've always needed that guidance but haven't asked for it as thought I can do things on my own. Over the last few years things have become more difficult. Self harming and me often retreating in within myself because I can't express myself clearly.
I totally understand that not everyone will totally get what I'm saying. Occasionally we have to read between the lines so to speak. Due to my condition, I have learned throughout my life that I've needed that extra support that I thought I didn't need at first glance.
I constantly struggle with understanding from others at times but it's an ongoing process which I know I'm winning. I used to be a shut book once but have learnt to open up more.
I often feel I'm more female oriented than male I guess because of how I feel and that's where the conflict comes in. I'm not the usual type of man so to speak, Can't stand confrontation, can seem very quiet but show more empathy and compassion and just love to be there for others who need it. Feel more vulnerable than most men but I take that as a good thing as can open up more easily and sharing with you all gives me personally a sense of relief with my ongoing difficulties.
I am always a beginner, always learning. Thanks to everyone who has got to know me through the years you are like family. Rich will keep going taking those baby steps, hearing and listening to what everyone of you says. It is most appreciated xx