She had been very ill for a long time and died early hours of Monday morning. I haven't mentioned anything about this before on the forum as we had agreed it was to be kept private, although I suspect a few people had guessed there was something I wasn't talking about. I've had to think about how and even if I wanted to broach it here, but as the community has been my safe haven the last few years and helped me pretend everything's fine when my world's crumbing round me, I felt I needed to say it somehow and didn't really want to just drop it into an existing thread.
I don't want this to become a dour pity-fest of a thread as she was a true warrior who battled long and hard despite being in so much constant pain which thankfully she is now free from. In honesty I don't really know what I want this thread to be as my head is spinning with a million different things that need to be done instantly but only after something else has been completed so it's a big game of hurry up and wait, as I'm sure anyone else who has dealt with the arrangements after a loved one dies will know. I may just let the thread sink like a stone now I've digitally-speaking "voiced" it, or maybe I'll just offload the mental chaos here as I chase myself in circles, no idea at the moment.
I deliberately took a couple of days off the forum and all social media while I dealt with the initial arrangements and stress, so I've only slowly started easing back in. I've intentionally not mentioned this on sites like FB as I don't just want a slew of complete digital strangers competing to be seen as most compassionate and grief stricken at the loss of someone they don't know in the slightest, I would find that so disingenuous and frankly insulting to piggyback on the grief of others. It's a very different thing for people who know me and hence by connection Mrs D, even if only through the occasional refference, to express compassion obviously.
So anyway, I'll probably just post this and then run away for a bit hence why I've not "@" mentioned anyone, this is a new world to me as I'm always the "I'm fine" person, being this open is alien to me and quite scary, so before I chicken out I'll hit post and scarper
Devastating @dtuxcomp. I’m lost for words. I can only temper the loss you must be feeling by the fact that im sure you also realise that someone you love is no longer in pain. I had a similar situation with my father with his battle with cancer. It’s a confusing mix of sadness and relief (for them). Your giffgaff friends are here if and when you need them. Take care fella.